sorry my 7 followers. i was at my dads all weekend. i was not happy about it. i am the first to admit that i have daddy problems. after my parents got divorced when i was around 8 or 9, i had to live with him cuz thats where my brother wanted to be and my mom didnt want to spilt us apart.too bad for him and me cuz my dad was crap. he was a drunk who spent all his time on online poker. he themn moved his girlfriend and her two kids in with us.i loved his girlfriend stormy and her two kids and hated the way my dad treated her and her kids. he was a complete asshole. when my brother graduated he moved in with our mom and i couple months later i did too. but then my dad lost his job and stormy finally left him and he just went down. he was suicidal and as sent to milton and then bridgeway. i didnt see him half a year and honestly, i was glad. i was so happy i didnt have to deal with him. but then he got better and now i have to go see him every other weekend even though i dont want to. all because my mom. it pisses me off soooo freakin bad. my g ma married alot and all the the guys were abusive and my mom didnt know her real dad that well. and i get that she wants better for me, but its not her decision. she says that she can force me to have a relationship with my father, but she cant. i tried and am done. and he is trying way too late. and then some people say that i dont know how lucky i am to have a dad. they dont know what it was like for me. i honestly would rather not have a dad.
but on a happier note, i downloaded beyonces i am sasha fierce album and… i. love. it. its nothing like what she souns on the radio. the songs are so powerful and meaningful. i know this is weird but i teared up listening to her songs.
i will blog again tomorrow:)
bye bye my beautifuls:)
today was just….so amazing…. i had so much friggin fun. savannahs was a blast with her and xavion! cept for i got flicked in the neck more than a couple of times:) then we went to the pep rally. kinda low bar. but still fun. cant wait till tomorrow1 imma have a blue “spirit” hawk.
now on another note, i was walking in the hall today minding my own business in a great mood and behind me i hear someone say “look its a faggot”. i was so mad! to start off, “faggots” as you call us, arent animals to be gawked at. we’re peple. yes we are different, but so is everyone else in the world. so if you dont like me, let it be because of who i am, and not what i am.
i was being sarcastic. t was supposed to make you laugh:)
This is it! My blog cherry i being popped! gosh! im so nervous! all i can think about is how people are going to react to the posts. will they like them. will they wanna stuff me in a trash can. things im sure you all who are actually reading thought on your very first blog. well lets dive right it!
so as you probably know, im gay…and a teenager.:) and im just going to say that i am not your typical gay guy. yes i do have my moments were im a total fag. but i dont let me being gay rule who i am. so this blog isnt going to be about me being gay, its going to be about how i go through life being gay and how it affects me everyday. i would like to start off saying that high school for me isnt that bad. yeah there are those jerks who call me a fag and do some really unnecessary things, but for everyone person who does that, there a five standing beside me who are going to kick their ass. im not saying that everyone has a life that easy. my mom is ok with it, i live in a pretty open community and have alot of support. i cant imagine how it would be if i liked in a closed minded area with parents who hated me for the sheer fact that im gay, and i would just like to say to anyone who has to go through that, i am here for you. if you have no one to talk to, talk to me.
now, to get to know me. im dakota. im 15. and im seen as the funny guy. my mom thinks im a pothead but i live above the influence:) those commercials realy spoke to me:) im pretty smart but am just really lazy. im trying to change it though:) despite the care free funny attitude, i am a great listener and am a great friend. everyone thinks that im freinds with evreyone and theyre partly right, but alot of the people who know me, know my reputation, not who i am, so they think that we are great friends. yeah it gets kinda of annoying to know that some poeple only talk to me cuz im gay, but whateer. cant change that. so now i think im getting kinda rambly so im just going to end this…for now! be prepared for another one tomorrow!
i would love to go to a tropical island. doesn’t really matter which. i just think it would be fun to be in the middle of the ocean on a little piece of heaven